CP v2 IMSG-004 — iMessage Forensic Extract: Mental Health & Medication (335 Messages)
→TARA Arizona Friend (+14803264584): Yeah. I'm in a good sober mode. Yoga 4 days in a row. Including two heat classes one one Acro class. Steam room today. Closed about $330k worth of business. Clothes shopping for Monaco tomorrow and going to see a crazy Russian female DJ tomorrow night.
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): You are not mentally well.
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): I am mentally fine
TARA→ Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): I know- I think it's the bipolar label- which Steve made so much worse
TARA→ Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): He's told me I'm severely mentally ill, incapable of being a mother, so on
→TARA Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): Being bipolar does not prevent u from having a relationship
→TARA Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): A healthy relationship is actually good for people with bipolar
TARA→ Arizona Friend (+14803264584): He tells me no one will ever treat me better. Last night he told me I was severely mentally ill and would make a horrible, horrible mother
TARA→ Catherine Cutright (+14152690296): I know him in the same way I'm sure you do, he can be very kind and generous. I just think he's mentally ill to be honest
TARA→ Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): Yeah I know he's infertile and makes me crazy
TARA→ Westchester Friend B (+19143277168): Why do you think I become so obsessive though? It has to be linked to the mental illness stuff
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): You are literally insane.
→TARA Arizona Friend (+14803264584): Not more meds. Different meds. I think you are actually going a little bit crazy.
TARA→ Contact #24 (+19177169411): Crazy new stress added today- my period is 12 days late, which I was attributing from extreme stress. Finally took a pregnancy test this morning and it was positive. Could only have been from Steve. Not contacting him, seeing a obgyn Thursday
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): Your literally insane
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): I'm sorry for saying it's not worth my time. Of course it is. I love you so much it makes me act crazy. I wish you could just stay here and I could take care of you- be careful and be healthy. I love you forever my special one 💏
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): I don't want to do that. I'm seriously off all my meds and have crazy hormones right now- my mind and body are in chaos right now. You need to understand that and love me anyway and help me get through this.
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): Stop being so insane please
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph1) (+14156019897): She's mental
TARA→ Brienne Walsh (phone) (+16467971407): I feel full of kindness though these days something about being pregnant it's crazy
TARA→ Arizona Friend (+14803264584): I'm feeling really depressed
TARA→ Arizona Friend (+14803264584): Yeah it's insane he's not capable of taking care of a baby
TARA→ Brienne Walsh (phone) (+16467971407): I don't want to push myself and end up depressed
TARA→ Mom&Dad (Walsh) (+15207305539): They take care of the baby all night long so I can sleep a proper 8 hours- my psychiatrist said I need one to prevent getting post partum depression or psychosis- which is scary.
TARA→ Therapist/Counselor (+15165079061): My psychiatrist confirmed today I am at high risk of early delivery on my meds and being bipolar- I met with her this afternoon
TARA→ LI Friend (+15164563276): You stopped taking all your meds? I still take some adderall to do work- I've been seeing a psychiatrist that specializes in pregnancy for months and she said it's fine actually
TARA→ LI Friend (+15164563276): Yeah exactly that's what my psychiatrist said- I've had a hard time with my bipolar being pregnancy- I was getting suicidal
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph2) (+14159993944): I was happy to be there too but I am also trying to live a life outside of that apt and that seems to be incompatible with your mental health.
TARA→ Brienne Walsh (phone) (+16467971407): Yes! Like what time just have psychiatrist at 11:30
TARA→ Arizona Friend (+14803264584): I'm so depressed I can't wait to date and have sex again
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph2) (+14159993944): It's also pregnancy related depression
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph2) (+14159993944): I'm already on crazy high meds to not be depressed and I'm a mess. It will probably only get worse after she is here- then they will up my meds more and I'll be even more of a zombie. And I will lose my business, income and last bit of freedom.
TARA→ Stephen Russell (Ph2) (+14159993944): I'm about to breakdown again- I should tell my psychiatrist but she will just tell me to take more seroquel.
TARA→ NYC Friend F (+16464012064): I'm huge though- 177lbs it's crazy
TARA→ Mom&Dad (Walsh) (+15207305539): Hi Linda- I know Steve had a refill on his adderall around now, in which I am guessing he is abusing it and becoming psychotic. He is not really responding to my texts or calls again. I'm 37 weeks pregnant and he should at the least respond when I text him.
TARA→ Brienne Walsh (phone) (+16467971407): My psychiatrist called them again about steve. So they were adamant that he not be in the room when c-section happens- so just me and you
TARA→ Mom&Dad (Walsh) (+15207305539): I know! I think he has schizoaffective disorder- like right now he is acting maniac he woke up at 7am. He also feels super strong and is spending like crazy
TARA→ Aunt (Nurse) (+19142629242): I'm ok- Long story but Steve not doing well mentally and destroyed my apartment today looking for spy devices. I told them at the hospital I need to stay another night while he hopefully cleans it up. But sadly I can't have him stay with us anymore.
TARA→ Contact #47 (+16465334150): Aww thank you! No I'm good I had the night nurse last night and Brie is huge help. Yes he's seen her- he was really sweet and good with her for the first 5 days. Then he just had a mental breakdown- it's a long story but he is basically schizophrenic/bipolar. His whole family is banding together for...
TARA→ NYC Friend C (+19179160439): He just took adderall and didn't sleep and got super crazy.
TARA→ Dr. Rhodes (+19174941190): Hi I'm not sure if you can talk but think I am getting depressed. I had a situation with my sister today at the Peditrician where a piece of adderall accidentally feel out of my bag and her daughter chewed on it. My sister was pretty mean to me about it- I feel awful. She seems to be really resentin...
TARA→ Westchester Friend B (SMS) (+19143277168): I regret going to see this psychiatrist too- bc all over my hospital paperwork ECT is that I'm bipolar
→TARA Catherine Cutright (+14152690296): Jesus. Is he still actif nuts? When I was there in November I had never seen anything like it before. He was insane
TARA→ NYC Friend F (+16464012064): I'm like 70% sure I will go on Friday if you want to still come with. The doctors just need to clear her flying. It would be a huge help and it will be fun!
→TARA Stephen Russell (Ph2) (+14159993944): You need that or you will go crazy. Trust.
TARA→ Mom&Dad (Walsh) (+15207305539): Also honestly I think I have some post Partum depression and have a highly qualified doctor her to modify my meds- also my family and the night nurse. He's not going to do well with me being sad/needy- I know him.
TARA→ Mom&Dad (Walsh) (+15207305539): I also need to see my doctor ASAP and it's a bad idea to just not treat my bipolar disorder. It's a real illness and I was doing well before he drew a line in the sand like this.
TARA→ Dr. Rhodes (+19174941190): Hi Dr. Rhodes- I decided to move to San Francisco to live with Steve and his mother. So far I feel much happier here and have way more support. My mood has been stable and I am sleeping great- baby is also doing great. I am seeing a psychiatrist here later today and have a call into another who spe...
TARA→ Westchester Friend A (+19147742351): Steve has called coming consistently been kind and patient with me I just have post partum depression- he took me to doctors today to start treating
TARA→ NYC Friend F (+16464012064): Good! I def have post partum depression though- just talked to my psychiatrist
TARA→ NYC Friend F (+16464012064): I've been super crazy to Steve at times but he's handling it well
Category: Mental Health & Psychiatric Treatment Evidence
Relevance: Documents ongoing mental health diagnosis and treatment, including bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, psychiatric medication management, and pregnancy-related mental health complications. Shows communications about psychiatrist visits, medication changes, postpartum depression concerns, and mental health crisis moments (March 2017 - March 2018)
Related Evidence: IMSG-001 (Drugging/Poisoning), IMSG-005 (Hospital/Medical)